no need. i said no need. dont explain urself, cuz i want hear no more. get it. i hope u do this time. im rly sick of all those lies, continue lying then. i cant be bothered anymore. one day u look back n u'll see.

co on tues was SCARY. i was scared though. to all jnrs who r still so worried, dont worry, u cant do worse than me. cuz i set a low benchmark as the first to go. i was stuck, shock, paiseh, zou sianh, wrong beat, irregular beat, stiff lyk some woodblock, n worse of all, i was smiling. kay, i bet i look damn spastic n wangyiren was umchioing. but she got damn fed up at all my mistake tht she took my instru n check it. n she took liquid n the usual stuff n fix here fix there. KAY, MY INSTRU IS A LITTLE BIT FAULTY(: so i played agn. not as bad but its no good lah. i noe i can do better. but, i dunnoe why lah. so i did v badly. after tht she ask me play agn, ok, i can conclude, HAHA, i did v badly. dont say my expectation too high, but im just not up to standard yet. sad lah. so i think i shld be prepared this time, dont end up crying like a baby like the previous time.

screwed maths n sciences. damn sad abt it. my bio got e8. cuz i didn do the holiday hw she say she counting it for ca. sry, no offence. so many ppl copied it. they didn do themselves, they still get high marks. i genuinely cnt do, n i attempted as much as i could, n wanted to wait for her to go through. sitting at the first row i submitted the paper n i swear it didn occur to me tht i want to copy, so i submitted a half done half undone paper. n whn i turn behind i see most ppl copying. fine, out of the whole ws i got a damn patheyic 9mrks out of 21 i think. which is damn stupid. kay, blame myself, if only u had less integrity n juz copied. so okay, be honest, in term one of my sec 4 life, i copied most work from my dear fren. i learnt my lesson, n i now do it. afterall all this is useless. as long as i dont get this for os. *twtw* maths was damn screwed. i failed e maths ca1. can u imagine how dumb izit? careless, no time, no brain cells. i used too much brain cell for front ques n i ran out of it towards the end. haix. n tdy emaths ca2 was bad. matrix!! so complicated. n luckily my chem is a little improvement lah. at least i passed it lor. so okay le lah.

did u care for wht i think? do u noe how it feels like? wtf. it was damn rude of u not to ask first. first time i say ok. second time i reluctantly say okay. but this doesn mean i would be ok for the third time. u didn even bother to ask. so whts the meaning of this? get someone to tell me so i wont have the chance to say no? i cant even say no! i cant even reject! all i can say is "okay". fine, btw, i noe u r only calling to inform me, but ur tone was effing rude. i was darn piss off lah. call me any names u want. i heard enough. dont say i nv trust u, but this time i heard it myself. why m i alwaes the one getting saboed? i loook v v v free huh? pls spare a tot for me n my studies lah. nobody do means sufen go n do izit? i noe its nth big deal, juz go in n write crap only mah, nth big deal. but at least ask first, dont juz impromtu, i dont feel good. cuz u noe u wont win afterall. no dictionary somemore. wtf. waste pen ink waste paper. im mad tdy. so dont care abt wht i said.

the saddest thing is when u tot u could give it all up but actually u cant bear to. whn u want to let go but u cant cuz ure clutching to it so tight.
whn u tot u didn mind but actually u do.
n whn u cant cry no matter wht. u noe u cant.

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