pushed back. pushhhhh backed. ok, pushed.
was super retarded this days. rather slow lah in layman term. was juz slacking ard lyk some freakky slacker, tht mrs teo came to me n tell me, "sufen, i feel tht u hadn been in class with me this few days." i almost cry for whtever freakking reason i dunnoe. i juz smiled n say, really? i was paying attention. i know tht for chem i really did try n listen, for chem. cuz mole concept is a headache. i did listen. so if lessons i did listen was depict as not there in class, then where m i for other lessons which apparently i juz lied down on my desk? or holding my head but dozing off? n i fell asleep during lit test. spastic ehhems came to knock my table n nag non stop. lethargic. really. say only wht u mean, dont say if u dont mean it. so my test was lyk~~ haiyayaya. glad tht i actually passed my emaths. though i tot i sure die then. i passed my bio. but the mrks aint tht good. i scored A1 for lit. but yeah, i dunnoe why im not as xcited lyk b4. maybe, lethargic. co was funny. tiffany is so fun. so today i had another round of fun cuz its her bdae. HAPPY BDAE TIFFANY!! so co was fine now. i dunnoe? but she's still avoiding me. it hurts. it takes time n patience. lyk how the puzzle work, u have to piece it up piece by piece. bits by bits. hoho. how long will it take? i dunnoe. juz wanna realx man. rnr. finishing breaking dawn twice. cuz im mad. i sacrificed my slp. madness. lols. xiao alr lah./ lessons r lyk so tiring. i felt drained.
aniwae how would u feel if ppl ard u tells u "i didn study" after the test, "i sure fail lah. i cnt do alot!!!" n blah all these craps n they got A1s after tht. not feeling ashame keeps on asking u when u didn score as well. they kept on boasting n feeling so proud of themselves. refusing to share wht they know n kept it to themselves. telling u "i dunnoe" when u needed help when actually they DO KNOW. n they score well. selfish. i wont call them bastards though this kinda of acts is rather bastard, its juz tht u shld feel ashame of urself being selfish. have u ever tot of how others helped u when u needed help? how ppl spent time explaining a whole concept to u, not asking for anything. u demand others, yet u wont share. i say thts sheer selfishness, darn despicable.
the most despicable person is not anything but ppl who speaks differently from wht they feel, wht they think and wht they do. u'll nv noe wht they r gg to do nex. u may die the nex moment juz becuz u cant predict them.
manda n clar i love u guys as much as u love me. dont worry. BFFFFFF. hohohohoho. i wont leave u guys alone de lah. fang xin. <33333
Love is not to forget but to forgive, not to see but to understand, not to hear but to listen, not to let go but to hold on. if u loved me as a fren, aniwae. though u're not tht close to me. though we see each other lyk only once in a few months, though we r not in same sch, it still hurts. why? jealousy. i hate u lyk tht. u were juz simply jealous. yes. u admitted it. but why me? why me? how could u do such a thing? telling the managers wht? okay. i shall not disclose. but thts too much of u. i had enough. so wht if im favoured over u? so wht i made more frenz than u? i nv took notice of these, u're juz being sensitive, noone is fighting with u for anything. noone is. u're juz spoiling the friendships.
*[i can stop lying to myself.
i tried my bez to believe u.
if u treated me as fren u wont do such a thing.
i tell myself, im not disappointed.
im not.]
FOR HS: sry i noe my attitude sux. u ARE a GREAT pal to hang out with, when we're NOT doing work tgr. cuz u alwaes lyk so bo chap. wht u wan me to do? haix. elaboration nex time. im in rush. icnt find the original one. sry. nex time bah.
let me swap ur heartpain for my heartpain.
amelia...