tht day she changed seat again. i noe u re close to amelia but i cant be unfair. since again n again i told shiyee n connie off so i cant be unfair. i had to do the same thing. its not the first time she changed seat n go talk to amelia. u said u were teaching, i accepted but, according to jiaxuan, ure not supposed to, its only sectionals than can teach aniwae. so i told her to change back n she is unwilling.(if u didn have a mirror lyk duh my face aint one, ur face was black aniwae) so i ask her go out we talk outside. so i told her, as the asl u shld set good example. instead of feeling buay song when i tell u things. she sulks n say okay blah blah n blah. but lyk duh she didn change. so when i went back in she was sitting on my place now.(she was on shiyee's seat juz now) god. god. so i waited for her to move slowly. tht was mine part of story though. erm. as for her i dunnoe? i wrote wht she said to. i noe she was saying got empty space mah. but then is lyk
1) when we all come in where we sit?
2) i have to be fair rite. others got say by me too wht.
3) u guys talk when sitted tgr.
4) u typed out the sitting plan rite. u shld be quite clear of its purpose. hoho.
but regarding sam's incident i dont think i anihow scolded her. if my tone sucks i say sorry. but is not anihow afterall. ur sentence got me into great trouble with ppl coming and ask me why why n why.
i noe im not alwaes right of course lyk duh.im wrong cuz of my personality at certain point of time. but im a rash person tht acts on impulse. do u think i'll think so much on the spot? n i do listen. wht ppl had been telling me is all into my mind, so pls. pls lah. i feel extremely hurt when someone i trust with not a single doubt do such a thing. n i was the only one who didn noe u took it so hard. i was the only one who dunnoe. i noe im not nice i noe im not. im not perfect i noe im not.
wenqing:
i'll change, thnks for ur concern. do u noe i tried to. lol. ur comments tells me alot. n yes i do noe certain things i noe is wrong. so yes, its not impossible. maybe my stubborness didn allow room for certain issues but i do listen. yes i noe who am i sometimes. but i dont bitch ARD. erm. i didn noe abt it so who had i told? wrong choice of words. i reflected at ur posts. i say thank if u want me to, in case u say im high n mighty. u noe bez whether im or not lor. u forgot the good part. maybe is ur good fren upset then u got angry, but do u seriously noe the whole damn thing? if u think she's sandwiched between who? me n faith? ure wrong. she is not. me n faith r juz fine now. yeah. if u noe she's tired, im too u noe. i do appretiate wht she did. i noe she tries her bez doing things i asked her to help. but i do things tht i can, trying not to trouble others. so u say i order her ard? ok. fine. i dunnoe if i did but i only know i didn ask her to do alot alot alot of stuff n treat her lyk a maid. i treated her as a trusted fren. n yet bleah. i dunnoe how to say too. i noe i may be high n mighty sometimes when i dont talk n feels extremely proud of myself (maybe i scored well) n dont smile n dao n wht, but dont tell me u smile all the time without feeling emo. im not a robot. im tired n drained. i do reflect n think abt myself. n tht is precisely why i noe im wrong. m i pathetic? lol.
ps: wht have i done tht i need to feel sry. pls explain.
doubt wht i wrote will make u change ur thinkings though. yeah. i'll change. hoho.


(after much much edition)
[but i didn change meaning of original paragraph]



trying to lead normal life. trying to say im not affected (liar). im a liar.
aniwae, stingy old man!! wth. i can do it de!! pissed off. god. i failed amaths reexam(expected) and yet my score was fifth. see how hard it is? drop.

erm, today was weird? had SPA suddenly. god. we were all shocked. lalala. TITRATION. cool pink. HOT pink:)) contextual meaning: hot is hot.

good news, dont go back on ur promise. bad news, im afraid i might.
felt quite stuck though. this two days had been slp-less. n tearful n if only u think of me too.
tnks for the tooffeee.

erm. went blog hoppng n saw alot. haha. open. sufenn be more open. leng jing leng jing. so i edit n edit cuz i typed whole chunk of freakking hell wordings. lol. and i seriously dont understand wht's on joseph blog. i dont understand. n i dunnoe wht the hell is happening to me. i changed so much til i start to dunnoe myself. yea, u were right. i wasn lyk this. god. god. i wont explain anything if i WERE me. wht the hell im doing. god.



berrythorn.
complexity.