if u think so then fine. haha. i got nth to explain anymore. if only wht i decided to do is correct. i hope it will be. plsss god.
im tired. n i believe so is everyone. juz put this to an end n stop all those nonsense u're doing lah. u really think nobody know meh. the only response i have is tht: why anonymous? im seriously very interested to see who on earth u re.
thts abit weird of me lah. lyk wht the hell after huh-ing to practically all wht wanqi was telling me. lol. haha. so the only rxn i have is: i wanna know who are those ppl.
tnks to those who encouraged me. i thank u alot.
special tnks to dingdonglalalalaaaaahengshengssss. sorry i alwaes add extra stuff to ur wonderful name. tnks for alwaes waiting for me after sch. tnks for alwaes being with me. making ur way to tht busstop n meet me. hear me crap n fa pi qi. sry abt ur amaths tb. haha. i promise i will iron them nicely. sry abt ur waste of tissue. now tissue vry expensive siah. hoho.xin ku ni le hor. haha. tnks alot.
n through these i learnt alot alot. n i found out sth vry heartwarming. tht i would have nv found out such support my jnrs were giving me. u guys rawkz.
to huishan. tnks too for being so concern. i will tell u the whole thing only if i can without crying halfway n ends up choking. n u end up huh huh huh cuz u cnt hear anything.
to jingjie N huishan: since u knew abt it why didn tell me? why didn tell me earlier?
to some-other-names-i-dont-wna-mention: tnks for u guys' msg. its a simple yet motivating sentence.
sry if these "wht should i do?" sentence keep on appearing in nowhere of our conversation. haha. i m quite lost n all i could do was ask.
aniwae, dingdongDONUT, do u mean wht u say abt gg to the trip with me? haha. two years. lets earn alot alot alot of money n go travel tgr. haha. its a deal. if tht day would come.
i saw the care tht nv surfaced. even if everthing juz end lyk tht, i have no regrets, n even if i die now those ppl tht nv seem to care actually cared enough.
tnks to LCS: why? ur test paper inspired me alot alot. aniwae its TLC set de. i alwaes tot so abt sth but in order to give perfect answer, i changed my mindset at tht moment during the test n wrote things i would nv ever had done. when looking back at my answers, i cldn believe i wrote them. i re-read n re-read. yeah. im right. why didn i think of tht earlier.
tnks to pek. i said wht i wanna said. not sure abt things after these. i may not survive through. but but but, my msn down lor. haix.
to eileen n hy n belle n yw n esther: i disappointed u guys man. haha. u wont blame me, but i feel sorry. wht we had gone through r the bez days. thts enough. i wont ask for more. hui mei shi de. dont worry. fang xin lah. wont do stupid things lyk tht time.
to huishan: yeah. u were right abt not leaving. the ties for two yrs plus. yes wo bu she de. i regretted the moment i wanna quit came out of my mouth. come on sf, dont be such a loser. give it ending. dont be such a loser.
tnks jordon: lol. its kinda scary, but thnks for being forgiving. haha. i was shock when u said its okay. i tot i will get scoldings. i was covering my ears n then he say sry too. lol.
n my mind had been at this topic ever since tht day when everything finally came to me. its too not late to say anything. n i noe tht im stubborn. i wont change my mind after my mind is set. thts the flaw abt me. n thts the cause. but i dont regret. if given a choice, i would have done the same things again. haha. so is lyk i dunnoe whether my next decision is correct. but think b4 u say anything, or write in this case. if wht u say will inflict pain n regret, i suggest u'll stop. i noe u will read this aniwae. juz a reminder. if ur motive is to fix me, n u use all sorts of stories to achieve ur goal, pls ask ur conscience.i wonder wht will happen if i call u lalax right into ur face n make u so paiseh. haha.
i found out my problem n u should be reflecting too. think, if u feel tired, so why m i not? n check dictionary b4 u choose ur word choice, ITS A GREAT IMPACT. i can lend u mine if u dont have one. cuz some words are too over,pls lah. not so exaggerated pls. ask urself is wht written true? is wht written fair? did u write the WHOLE FULL story? OR juz a part of it u want to say. think of others too no matter u are unhappy or wht. think from other views. u'll see alot.

trying to keep myself bright.smile.suppressing feelings hurts alot.holding back screams n tears hurts even more. i speak better than write. im damn open abt this leh. dunnoe why. i speak abt this very openly. im shock at my willingness to put down mian zi wen ti. so shock. sry to those i troubled. phone bills burst. sryyyy. heehee. tnks for advices in between. n some reminders for me too. tnks to those who came to me n tell me. to me. thnks for ur courage. those nameless, i dont blame u. but if u got no guts dont do dirty things can? erm. it juz makes us puke. sry lah. not u re dirty, but ur acts are. opps. sry lah. its lines between lines. hoho. i wont go crazy. i decided not to. sry abt some stupid theories i came up with these two days. to keep me entertain. to hide uncertainity. sry. abit yu wu lun ci. thnk god im fine. tnks for tissue alwaes available, to my bbf i love u!! to my bffs i love u guys too. god. i feel drained. i lose trust. plus other fators. its complicating.
yeah i passed all my tests afterall. *ehhems*amaths*
kay. enough of co. whtever my result will be. whtever the ending would be.
incoherency. déprimer. mélancolique. frôler. irremplaçable.pls lah.

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