oh god. today's motivation talk was really really motivating. cuz i learnt alot from it. i learnt not to be so mean. i learnt not to be so demanding. everyting takes time. i shall wait.
and that i do not want to disappoint them. ur encouragement kept me on. i do not want to disappoint those who said "do a gd job" n stuffs lyk tht. all this time things i tot tht was right aint right n wht i tot was wrong aint wrong exactly. god. im dying. so guess the only way out is to write here. but even here aint a good place to. misunderstandings do happen. so its unfair to judge anyone. i'll take another plunge, see whether i fall.
if all all all of us could be understanding enough things wldn turn out such ways. at least these few slpness nite is worth it. at least i sorted out my tots. i was reassured by today's tok. and if i can do things to make it better, i WANT to do it. no matter how the result turns out to be. i noe i aint perfect. im not flawless. of course i did sth too. cuz if both of us did nth, nth wld happen. n through this i saw many. plenty. it reflects ppl ard me. i NEED to grow up. i dont wanna be the little gal alwaes crying for. i refrained myself frm going to the person who alwaes lent my ears n make her tired too. wo hui xin tong. i dont wanna torture ppl ard me. wo hui xiao. i dont want ppl ard me to be affected. wo muz smile. it shows alot. it showed alot. xin ku de not only me. i bet many r vry xin ku. ren dou shi hui lei de.
day out with wan to CA2. cool man. glad though. saw *ehhems* haha. so shocked.
i realised i changed. wo yi qian bu hui zhe yang de.
moral support, where r u.
life is messed.
co wonderful life ruined.
class life is plain.
life so messed.
friends sux.
ppl u trust most hurt u most.
sufen is dumb to trust wrong ppl. blame noone gal.
if i dont even have the right to write, i seriously dunnoe where to go to. wo hui zi sha bah. i used to tot im vry optimistic. but i feel so pessimistic now.
messed. sorted. soon. hope. confidence. yes.
amelia...