XUANYUE. im sry for not bein a nice person. not a nice snr. not a nice jnr. to u, to anyone, in aniwae and anithing.im sry for not bein the type of person u want me to be. im sry tat things turn out such way. im partly responsible. for not doing things i need to do such as explaining to the whole xy comm. i shld have done tat. not only to dajie, where by i tink she only told jinyu. i shld have announced to the whole world tat i am working on a saturday. im not free. YES. I M THE ONE WHO ASKED FOR THE OUTING and yet i wun go. contradicting? sorry. but its not my choice. i wanna go. IF ONLY MY DEAR SNR N JNR ARE GOING. im tired. u wun noe. i saw the disappointed face of dajie. and im sad. if u noe me well, u noe im one who will think much. n im sensitive. i was guilty n sad cuz frm dajie's expression i noe she's sad. oh god. she was so sooo happy when i told her im gg for the dinner. i planned a surprise for her. to go wid samantha shimin n shuling to giv her a surprise. but now not only there wasn surprise, there is tension. why? why n why? im living in misery. i cant dun go. and yet wad i did did not pay off. wads the use of mentioning? is to make u guilty. I DIALED UP ALL, EACH AND EVERY OF MY JNR AND ASKED THEM TO GO. I EVEN ASKED THE SNRS. can? happy? dun feel guilty. i did wad i want to help dajie so as to help myself to feel beta. yet u came up wid such a stupid idea of blaming on others. IF UR PLAN IS GOOD, THIS WOULDN BE THE RESULT. yes. i noe everything is over. i'll juz turn up tmr and help myself wid the food. tats all. fullstop, no commas pls.

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